I just ate a glorious egg and roasted tomato baguette sandwich and the most amazing almond croissant I've ever experienced. Well, actually, I first experienced this particular almond croissant last Friday and today was my 3rd one since then. Ugh! Right now the only thing that's preventing me from gaining back the 60 or so pounds I've lost in the last 18 months is the 2 personal training sessions I have each week that I HAVE to go to (because I paid for them and paying for something that I don't use just makes me sick to my stomach).
Here's what frustrates me: I know what I should eat, I know how to exercise (cardio, strength training, flexibility), I know what foods to avoid. I know all of these things, but I fail to commit to them! I'm full of excuses for why I can't follow a healthy lifestyle. Right now I have a terrible cold (which is very true) so I'm just too exhausted to work out and just want to eat ice cream to help soothe my sore throat. Any other day, I can claim that my schedule is so hectic with working a full time job AND a part time coaching gig that I just don't have the time to properly plan meals or squeeze in any extra workouts. It's all bullshit. I know it is because of the guilt that follows when I skip a workout or eat crap food.
I'm finding a way back. I can't guarantee or promise myself that it's going to be all good all the time, but I'm certain that putting myself out there (out here) will be a reality check for me.
